The Struggles Of A Mom During The Pandemic

When I first heard about the pandemic I was in shock. I wondered how it would affect my job, how would it affect my husband’s job, how would it affect my son? Luckily my husband and I were both able to continue working, but one of my biggest concerns over the past few months has always been how will this pandemic affect Artie?

He is only 2, so luckily he doesn’t fully understand what is going on. He knows he can no longer play at his favorite places like the bounce houses and playgrounds that we used to visit frequently. I am grateful that he doesn’t understand why, but it BREAKS my heart when he screams “Bounce!” every time we drive past that shopping center. When we pass the YMCA he points and says “Friends!” because he misses playing with the other kids at the gym.

Artie doesn’t have any siblings or cousins, and our close neighbors don’t have children his age either. We have had a few playdates this month but I also worry, since I work with the general public, what if I get the virus and spread it to our friends? Is one playdate worth it? Or is the risk too high? Am I being too careful? Am I being careful enough? Months into this pandemic there are still so many unknowns. How do we know we are doing the right thing?

I remember being at the pool with Artie last summer… he was only one year old and we had so much fun sliding down the waterslides together at the YMCA pool. I imagined back then what this summer would be like. I pictured him racing down the slides on his own in his puddle jumper, like I watched the other toddlers do. I never imagined back then that we would spend this summer in quarantine.

Artie is enrolled to start preschool this August. He loves to learn and I was SO excited to watch him develop in a structured learning environment. Now I am not sure his school will even be open… if it is will I feel comfortable sending him?

I worry that this pandemic will affect my son long term. His safety is my biggest concern but I also don’t want him to miss out on a part of his childhood.

I am hoping this virus will blow over sooner rather than later. In the meantime we will visit family, play outside, and share lots of hugs! I am so thankful for what we do have, and I know our situation could be much worse, but it is hard to shake the feeling that my son is missing out.

I would LOVE to hear from other moms. How have you been handling this pandemic? Are you struggling? Are you back to your everyday routine? Is your city still shutdown?

Thank you for letting me vent! <3

 

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